Why I Find It Difficult to Form Relationships With People – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 647

Today during a conversation I realized an interesting point about myself. A few weeks back I had opened up a point within myself about how I wanted to ‘get out more’. What I had identified within myself and my life is that I have a habit of ‘keeping to myself’ and that this is something …

Hurry Up and Work Already – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 417

Today I drove into the city to buy some frames for my paintings and other art supplies. Today is normally my day off so I understood that doing this task today is moving myself beyond my threshold of “what I normally do in a week” so the this was just a point I was aware …

Prioritizing REAL VALUE – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 200

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience an “aversion” to painting where within this aversion I am defining painting as a complete waste of time, that there is so many other better ways to spend my time so that I am developing the necessary skills to stand as an effective …

Fear of Anger and Aggression – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 156

An event occurred where I was driving with some individuals and I made a comment about something I observed about the road. One of the people I was with responded very quickly in a “very abrupt way” that was demanding and also very rude and mean and inconsiderate and simply unacceptable because it was overall …

Battle of the MIN(e)D (Self Correction) – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 140

This is a continuation of the previous Blog Post - Battle of the MIN(e)D SF - An Artists Journey To Life: Day 139 I commit myself to before I speak to another check within myself to ensure that my words are not coming forth from a reaction I am having, and also within this “checking” …

Living At Home – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 130

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself due to me being ‘home’ and staying/living with my parents. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as “less than” for moving back home and living with my parents. I forgive myself that I have accepted …

Our Collective Acceptance of SLAVERY as the Nature of CAPITALISM – An Artists Journey to Life: Day 49

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize that “Business” as All Business’s in this world are simply acting components of a larger system of slavery that has no consideration for actual life or human beings, as is seen by the very fact that within “doing business” one is willing to …

Let Me Just do the Exact Same Thing Over Again? – An Artists Journey to Life – Day 29

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear changing my total life. I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see myself living in a completely different way. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only consider seeing “my life” in the idea that I think …

Designing Myself In the Image and Likeness of Competition and Greed – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 16

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my model for living on what I was taught through/within my family structure. Not seeing or considering that this model was/is actually founded in competition and greed as the nature of what we as existence/humanity have been living as on earth. I forgive …