A New Dimension of SUCCESS – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 818

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I recently started reading a book written about Jack Ma and the creation of Alibaba which is one of the worlds largest online marketplaces. In reading about Jack and his enterprise I came across a couple examples of Ma’s definition of Success that I found to be very grounded, practical, and livable by anyone where he really took that point of success and boiled it down into something tangible, and accessible to everyone.

What I find interesting is that I have been deliberately working with the process of Re-defining and Living Words, and here this man actually did exactly this by coming up with his personal definition of Success that he could live and apply in his world in a way that supported him.

In the book, Ma defined it as follows,

“Success lies not in how much you have accomplished, but in the fact that you have done something, experienced the process, and begun to learn something”

What I like about this definition is it emphasizes not an outcome of good or bad, success or failure, but of THE ACT, the point of taking action and actually doing something – That is the success, the fact that you got off your but and applied yourself.

For me, I have been slowly starting to develop a new body of artwork and so I really relate to this definition of success because for me the most difficult part often is just getting up and DOING SOMETHING, or motivating myself to sit down in front of my canvas and start painting. Where that very action IS the success, not the outcome, but the ACT.

So here I see for myself that to be more successful requires me to take more action. On paper it looks easy, though I do understand that applying and living this definition of success may bring up other dimensions for me to consider and work out.

Okay that’s the point I wanted to Share!

 

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Walking My Desteni Process: SELF WRITING – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 723

Its Time To Stop Carrying The Past, Investigate Self With Desteni I Process

 

Walking My Desteni Process
The Principles – Part 1
The Forums – Part 2

 

Another way I have engaged myself and practically participated within walking my process with desteni since the beginning and throughout the past 8 years, is SELF WRITING.

Throughout the years I have walked this process I have shared a lot of myself on the various online platforms, such as the  desteni forums, youtube, facebook, my blogs, ect. Though one thing I have always done since the beginning which was a way for me to support myself in the walking of this  process from Consciousness to Awareness, is I have done Self Writing.

This is where its just me and a notebook and I sit down with myself and write for myself and in this I really push myself to be self honest where I don’t have to think about editing myself for a public audience because these writings are for my eyes only.

I still do this to date, and actually did this just today. Me and my notebook…and my coffee usually also.

So if you are just beginning with your process or you are wondering what you can do to start actively walking your process. This is one suggestion that I would recommend. To make it a habit to do Self Writing.

Self writing for me was a way to just clear my head, or stabilize myself or ground myself. It was a way to look at those more personal points that you can’t necessarily publish. Self Writing was a kind of daily maintenance.

Doing Self Writing for me was natural where I just did it to develop my own Self Awareness and get to know in detail myself and the points I was facing.

The point with this process is to actually move from Consciousness to Awareness, and I have found consistent Self Writing over the years has really supported me in developing my Self Awareness and Self Stability within myself.

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“I don’t want to deal with that right now” – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 679

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In this blog I am going to expose the statement “I don’t want to deal with that right now”.
I noticed this specific statement the other day just as I was finishing up with some writing. I noticed how I had been accepting and allowing myself to speak this statement within me quite frequently in relation all sorts of various things.

I see that this statement has become quite a part of myself. Quite a part of what comes up within me as I encounter moments, tasks, challenges, resistances, as I walk my day to day living and I see that as such it ultimately is playing a creative role in terms of the kind of life I manifest for myself.

Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize, and understand how I create my reality through accepting and allowing myself to exist within, and participate with this statement within me “I don’t want to deal with this right now” in relation to facing tasks, challenges, moments during my day, where in speaking this statement, I am giving myself instructions in terms of how I will direct myself when facing such tasks, challenges, moments during my day to day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to automatically speak this statement within myself “I don’t want to deal with this right now” when I am faced with certain tasks, challenges, moments, where this statement followed by a specific experience of weakness has become an embedded part of my experience of myself within my life.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, or understand the consequences of accepting and allowing myself to participate with, and exist within and as the statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now” where a consequence of this is I dis-empower myself within my expression and self direction and self development because I will accept and allow myself to participate with this statement when I am facing a moment of change, where instead of in that moment pushing through my experience and changing myself and directing myself in a way that is effective, I will participate with the statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now” and so in this give into an experience and so thus my mind as pre-programming to direct me and where I will continue existing within predictable patterns and old patterns that is in fact not benefiting me but only contributing to me remaining stuck in a limited version of myself instead of supporting myself to correct and change all patterns and habits that is not beneficial to me or Life and supporting me within my endeavor to live and express to my utmost potential.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize, and understand how this statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now” is so closely intertwined with my energetic experience of myself and that this statement is used to disempower myself or keep me contained within the energetic parameters that I have established as myself as my pre-programmed experience which influences, directs, and controls me within who I am, what I live, and what I become.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize, and understand that my physical reality has become a reflection of this statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now” in where I have accepted and allowed this statement to become an excuse I allow to allow myself to be directed and controlled by experience instead of living within and Directing Myself according to Principle.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to ‘red-flag’ this statement and to realize that when ever this statement comes up within me that it is indicating a specific point where I have the opportunity to assist and support myself to become Principled in my Living and in fact it is identifying for me an exact area within myself and my life that requires the correction from experienced living to principled living, as this statement of “I don’t want to deal with that right now” will show me what specific energy that I have accepted and allowed myself to often give into which I can see right now is like a kind of overwhelmed and exhausted experience.

I commit myself to see, realize, and understand that within correcting myself here to instead of give into my energetic experience I have connected with the statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now” , that I will in fact be assisting and supporting myself to become more practically functional and physically directive within myself and my life and so thus actually bettering myself and supporting myself to live and express to my utmost potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the energetic experience of exhaustion to the statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect anger to the statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect sadness to statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the experience of overwhelming to the statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the energy of self-defeat to the statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the experience of “giving up and giving in” to the statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to victimize myself within and through speaking/participating with the statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now”

I commit myself to assist and support myself to stop keeping my victimization personality locked in, through accepting and allowing myself to speak and participate with the statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now”

When and as I see myself wanting to participate in this statement “I don’t want to deal with this right now” where I want to speak this statement as an justification of my energetic experience of “not wanting to do something” I in that moment when I  see that statement arise within me stop myself and immediately slow myself within and as my breathing and support myself to in my breathing bring myself here, and stabilize myself Here into and as my physical body, so that I am physically present and HERE. I see, realize, and understand that this statement of “I don’t want to deal with this right now” has become and is a pre-programmed statement that automatically comes up within me in relation to facing moments within my life where I have actually conditioned this statement to come up within how I “normally deal with or handle myself and my reality. I also see that this statement does not support me within my process of living to utmost my potential because it is used as a reason or justification to give into my mind as my energetic experience of myself when I am faced with the task of Directing My Physical Reality, particularly within the context of re-enforcing the personality of Victimization which is a point of dis-empowerment,  and so as a result I am not moving and or directing myself as effectively as I could be and so here I commit myself to assist and support myself to when ever I see this statement coming up within me to, from that point of firstly stabilizing myself within breath, to then identify the task or challenge that the statement is coming up in relation to and then assessing this task/challenge from a Practical Standpoint and not allowing this statement and the energetic experience I have connected to this statement influence my Practical Direction in my life but here assist and support myself to Live to my Utmost Potential and Support myself to become Self Directive instead of allowing myself continue existing as and living out the point/application of Victimization as this obviously does not support me to be and live my utmost potential.

A Story About Resistance (Part 1) – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 669

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Here I am beginning with my introduction to a point that I have faced quite allot in my life, that I still face today, and that I have faced and walked in the past. So here I am beginning with sharing my story and perspective on a point that I am sure many can relate to – Resistance.

I remember being confronted with this point in my early life and I even remember having some successes in relation to actually pushing through resistance. Where there was this feeling that would come up within me where “I just didn’t feel like doing something” but I did it anyway. I pushed through that feeling and did it anyways because there was also an awareness within me that ‘that is just what must be done’.

Later on in my college years, this resistance point would come up towards doing school work, or pushing myself and disciplining myself to work long hours at developing my craft and skill within Art.
I moved through allot of resistance with regards to painting and doing art and this is one of the areas of my life that in a way was an opportunity for me to face this point of resistance and to walk through it. Art was like the first place in my life where I really confronted resistance head on and learned to push through it. Learned to just take that step and “do it”, even though there was a part me that was tired, or that just didn’t want to do it.

I enjoyed doing art, and this in a way made it a bit easier to walk through resistances. Because I can see I had formed a relationship to art where it was something that I at times immersed myself within to avoid having to do other things that I didn’t want to do, other things that I resisted. Like visiting with family, or ‘getting a real job’ or ‘doing my taxes’ or ‘cooking dinner’, ‘or writing a paper’. So yes, one can have resistance towards doing many things. So, my plan here is to walk a bit of my history with Resistance and share what I have come to understand about this point and then to also share how I currently work with this point in my present day to day living.

When I started walking the Desteni process, I was supported to start seeing more explicitly what resistance is and all the various forms of resistance, and how it comes up in relation to so many aspects of ones life.

Resistance to work
Resistance to getting up early
Resistance to doing chores
Resistance to certain co-workers
Resistance to family
Resistance to going to the party when you don’t know anyone there
Resistance to your partner
Resistance to sex
Resistance to your routine
Resistance to breaking your routine
Resistance to lending a hand to a friend
Resistance to working when its cutting into your time to relax
Resistance to working more hours than you normally do a week
Resistance to buying fruit and veggies instead of candy and chips
Resistance to taking the garbage out
Resistance to spending money
Resistance to getting yourself a glass of water when your already in bed with the lights off but your thirsty
Resistance to tidying up your room
Resistance to speaking to someone when there is a point of conflict
Resistance to pushing yourself to support yourself to become better because its just too much work
Resistance to forming relationships that go beyond just the surface
Resistance to taking the dog for a walk
Resistance to doing your homework
Resistance to WRITING YOUR BLOG!

And the list goes on and on and on.

I will continue in my next blog with my personal story about encountering various forms of Resistance within my life, and how I have come to direct myself in relation to it.

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Self Will and Self Won’t (the manipulation of Self) – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 655

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Is it too difficult?

Is it impossible?

Is it that you can’t you do it?

Or is it

That you actually just don’t want to do it?

This can be a very subtle difference actually as I discovered today.

I had 2 options before me.

Option 1: I spend some time working on project B  before I start work on project C. I do this to make sure I reach my goal of how many hours I wanted to work today at work. I finished project ‘A’ much earlier than I anticipated which left me a few hours short of my initial goal though I did have the option if I wanted to, to work on project B to make up for the lost hours. It was entirely up to me.

Option 2: I jump right into project C which would not count towards my hours, thus I would not make my goal,  but it is what I preferred doing, though, I would have compromised on my goal which I had specifically set in relation to a point of Responsibility for myself to ensure I am getting enough hours at work

Now standing before this decision the “Back-Chat” in my mind really started to chatter. It sounded something like this…”Ok I should do what is most responsible…but you have worked allot of hours this week….and you really need to get moving on project c….but actually I am fine to not work on project c….but maybe I should….I am compromising myself if I don’t work on project C….actually no I am compromising myself if I don’t work on project B….which one should I do….

And so you can see in this inner dialog that I am really jumping back and forth in my mind trying to decide which project to take on.

Now an interesting thing happened.

I decided to first just go over to project B and assess it, because ultimately there was a point within me of seeing that working on project B and reaching my hourly goal was most practical, but man I was resisting that and I just wanted to skip it and work on project C which would not count towards my hourly goal but which would have been ‘funner’.

So I walked over to ‘Project B’ to assess the point. It was a big stone sculpture that I was doing some work on.

It was really heavy and as I stood there looking at it. I realized ‘I was going to have to flip this thing over’. I was alone in the studio today and I wondered if I was going to be able to handle flipping this myself.

And then here comes the inner dialog starting up again….”you should wait for someone….its not your piece, you don’t want to damage it….if it was your piece you could do it, but it’s not your piece so you must take extra precaution, so its best if you leave it and work on project C”…

So I decided to just see if I could in fact turn this heavy stone piece over by myself. I have lifted many stone sculptures over this past year so have gotten quite good at it and have figured out what I can handle on my own and what not, and so as I tested to see how heavy this piece was, I started lifting and immediately I was like “on no, its to heavy”, “there is no way I can lift this”.

It was just to precarious and tricky to lift on my own.

So I waked away and decided to work on project C.

As I stood outside taking a breather before I started working again. Within myself I took one last look at if I should maybe try again to lift the piece and flip it over, I could see that ultimately within myself I didn’t really want to work on that project even though I saw that it was in fact the best thing to do and the most supportive for me to do, but I just didn’t want to, I wanted to work on project C. And within myself there was this point where I knew that I really didn’t try my hardest to flip over the sculpture. I knew that I did not apply “where there is a will there is a way” I saw that if I in fact really wanted to work on project B then I simply would find a way, I would find a solution. And so I could see that I was being influenced by my mind here where I was making myself believe that the piece was to heavy to lift when in reality I just didn’t want to lift it. So I decided to give it one more shot but to ACTUALLY TRY this time.

I walked over the stone sculpture, wrapped my arms around it, flipped it up on its edge, and then laid it down on the opposite side. It was actually quite easy to do.

Its amazing how much our minds influence us in this way.

Its like we will give up on something not because we are unable to do it but because we just don’t want to do it, though what I noticed about this process today is that we make ourselves think that we are unable to do it when it is in fact that we just don’t want to. The mind is sneaky this way. We as human beings are sneaky this way – We manipulate ourselves. We talk ourselves out of doing that which we know is best and we make it seem like we had no other option.

I nearly did this today. The sculpture initially was too tricky to lift, it was too heavy. Especially because I really didn’t want to lift it, so my attempt at doing so was rather meager. But eventually I stopped this self manipulation, took a breath, I decided I am actually going to give this my best shot and man it was soooo much easier to lift after that. It was actually not heavy at all, it was never heavy, though beforehand I made it out to be in my mind.

So a cool Self Realization today with this point of how easy it is to manipulate self and so here I have a reference point of actually stepping out of this self manipulation, this Self Won’t, Into a point of Self Will, and actually really giving it my best shot to find a Solution. I see that I cannot say it is not possible and there is no Solution if I really do not try or look for Solutions to the best of my ability.

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Creating Heaven On Earth – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 600

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So the last few days I have been allot more in my mind, in thoughts, feelings and emotions. As a result things in my reality have appeared allot more troubling or hopeless or simply overall resembling or reflecting  more my inner experiences of and as the mind which I have found during these last few days I have been accessing the more ‘negative’ dimensions of myself.

I read a cool perspective today on the point of “bringing heaven to earth” What I saw within this is that heaven is essentially one and equal with and as the mind in terms of the ethereal nature of these points because if you look at ‘heaven’ or even ‘hell’ for that matter as conceived in religion  – its not actually real and here. It exist as an idea, as an imagination essentially, which is the same as the mind where yes one might see pictures in the mind but these pictures are not actually here – they exist more in an ethereal framework that is not actually HERE and Physical in and as this Reality.

So what does it mean to actually ‘Live Heaven on Earth’ – Well, simplistically it means to get out of your head and start living and expressing here in and as the physical. Because what I have found for myself is that I conditioned myself to exist in and as my mind without this having a real solid direct relationship to EARTH. And this creates a problem because we get so caught up in our heads and believing what is going on in our minds that we don’t actually realize that that is not real. To some extent we understand that, but we still have not fully comprehended the necessity to actually Live HERE in the Physical and to align and focus our living and attention to being practically physically HERE.

So as I mentioned in the beginning of this blog, for the last few days I was more existing in my ethereal mental reality which I realize I have conditioned myself to become accustomed to which I am at the moment currently walking a process of realigning myself to Physical Living. And so within existing more in my mind these past few days, I became pre-occupied with my ‘experience’ where even my experience of myself became allot more intense and I started to stress and worry allot more about my life and I lost touch with the Earth as my grounding point. Meaning – In my case, I was worrying allot about work among other areas of my life, and in this worry I stopped applying myself effectively in the Physical on the Earth – Doing those actions that is necessary to be done to support myself within what I am capable of doing to practically live that which I see is the physical actions I require to do to best support myself.

So when that point was mentioned about ‘bringing heaven to earth’ I realized that that is exactly what I required to do. To get out of my mental heaven(positive) and Hell(negative) and get back into the Physical (HERE). And getting back to those daily practical actions that is actually creating my life.

 

 

Path of Least Resistance Creates the Least Results – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 584

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my life and my daily routine to be a nice and pleasant experience and when it is not this way, I go into resistance towards the points and tasks that are part of my life that I define as ‘not easy’ or do not give me that ‘nice and pleasant’ experience, and that within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate principle to form and shift around these particular unpleasant tasks/points within my reality where then in doing this I am actually not in fact Living by Principle but allowing my ‘experience’ dictate who I am through dictating what I will do and give my attention and direction to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise my principled living where I am in fact not living by principle at all because yes, I may have started out approaching a task or point from a principled stand point but then as soon as the task or point become difficult or tough or no more pleasant, I will shift from principled living to now going back into experienced living and thus then taking the path of least resistance which is how laziness and apathy develops where one simply prefer to put out no effort at all to stick to principled disciplined living and in turn never develop themselves within the potential they have available.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that the entire point of living by principle is so to assist oneself to walk/stand through those points/times where things get tough or difficult.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to implement a principled way of living where I Live by Principle based in Common Sense Living in a way that is Best for ALL.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed ‘experience’ to have a big influence on my life in various areas and aspects of my life where I “give into experience” where when things get tough, I will make the decision within myself to not stick to my principle that I established but instead go back on it and give into the experience and thus change my direction to take the path of least resistance or the path that gives me the experience I want, not seeing, realizing or understanding that what I really want is to live by Principle in a Disciplined way that produce results that I would actually be truly satisfied with, and that to give-in and just go for instant satisfaction always end up creating myself in a way that is shadow of what I could create myself to be  if I were to actually Live by and Stand by Principle for real and so thus in giving into experience I always end up disappointed and dissatisfied with myself.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to stop myself when at the moment when I see I am just wanting to go for the instant gratification instead of being willing to or continuing to commit to a long term dedicated principled walk to really develop and enhance myself that I realize will add actual substance to my life.

When and as I see myself attempting to manipulate myself to ‘take the easy road’ or the ‘path of least resistance’ when faced with certain moments/tasks/points within my life, I stop and I take a breath. I realize how I manipulate myself to ‘take the easy road’ by making it seem like “its ok” or its justified, and I also see how when I do this, I really see that I am manipulating myself and simply just wanting to “take the path of least resistance” instead of sticking to Principle as the Structured Step by Step Plan I had created for myself as a Disciplined Approach to how I seen, realized, and understood I could walk specific tasks/points in the most effective way possible. And so,

I commit myself to stop ignoring these moments where I see I am manipulating myself and  rather in such moments I commit myself to stop manipulating myself and Thus Not take the path of least resistance as that which I am WANTING to do instead of that which I see would be best for me in fact.

I commit myself to when I see myself starting to contemplate within my mind within thoughts, and justifications and back-chat as internal conversations about if I should really push myself within principle in particular tasks/points/moments or if I should not, to in such moments, bring the realization into the fore that I am in fact aware of and see and understand that I am manipulating myself and that what would in fact be best for me would be for me to Stick to Principle. I also realize that the consequence of allowing myself to continually go back on my principle is a growing dissatisfaction with myself which I realize will only change through stopping myself from accepting and allowing myself to take/go with the path of least resistance instead of actually Sticking to Principle and  Completely Walking my Set out Structured Plan that I initially seen, realized, and understood would produce the best results in creating real lasting Support for myself and my Life within the context of what is best for ALL.

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