Using Self Forgiveness to See and Understand Me – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 820

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Today when I woke up I experienced a resistance to getting out of bed mixed with a depression energy. I decided that I would speak some Self Forgiveness on my drive to work and see if I could open up within me what this experience was all about as it has become something of a familiar experience recently in the mornings, particularly when I work.

Initially when I started speaking Self Forgiveness I wasn’t really seeing anything specific and the Self Forgiveness seemed routine and the same ol’ points. However I decided to continue speaking the self forgiveness and after a few minutes I started hitting on points that were more specific and I began seeing and understanding my experience, or at least understanding the point that I was seeing in that moment about my relationship to my own inner experiences and my relationship to my work.

One of the main dimensions that I was seeing within me in relation to my work was that I was stuck in a kind of perpetual blame cycle towards my job where I had at some point decided that “it was my jobs fault” that “its my job that is causing and creating my experience”, “it was my jobs fault that my life is the way it is”

So within the Self Forgiveness I came to understand that I was making my job “more than” me, blaming my job for my current experience and so me not Standing as THEE point within myself as the Source of who I am and my experiences, rather I was in a point of allowing myself to say that it was my job that was the main thing, that “I” was doing everything right and nothing wrong and  that it was my job that was causing and creating my experience, and if my job would just change or be different, then I could go back to an experience that I would prefer, in other words, I was effectively disempowering myself.

So yes, totally giving my power and my responsibility away to this external point within my reality. So the speaking of Self Forgiveness really supported me to see what I have been accepting and allowing of myself in relation to this aspect of my job and I also saw that, how could I reap the fruits that I desire or want from my job if I am constantly blaming and judging and angry towards my job?

That is like having a child and wanting to have a deep, fun, and enjoyable relationship with the child but then raising that child through blaming it, judging it, criticizing it, being angry at it, ect… eventually you are going to create a resentment within the child towards you so in essence,

How can I create the success I am wanting with my job if I am in direct conflict with the very thing I am wanting to support this end. It’s a contradiction. So this was an interesting dynamic to see in the my relationship with my job and realizing here that It’s up to ME to establish a more effective supportive relationship with this particular part of my job that I was in conflict with, beginning with stopping that relationship where I was giving all my power away through blame, by saying “its your fault” so rather, now accepting, and realizing, I am the ONE, I am the SOURCE of my experience and I am the SOURCE of the relationship I create towards, with, as my job and so I must start working with my experience, like that experience I have of resistance and depression in the mornings that I seem to wake up with where for instance if I see this experience coming up again, I know that its connected to and based on the points of blame and abdication of my Self Responsibility in relation to my job and so can support myself to change this through for example, speaking some self forgiveness  and correct myself in those moments and Direct Myself to Stand as the  SOLE Creator of experience and so 100% responsible for them and my relationships that exist as me within my life.

So now going forwards after seeing this today, I am now going to practice identifying that ‘blame signature’ of this particular experience that has been coming through lately so that I can make sure to ALIGN myself according to Supporting myself and Standing as SELF RESPONSIBLE for Myself and my Experience and my Relationship to my Job so that  I can stop and change this experience and see how I can support myself to change my relationship to/within my job so that it is Supportive!

 

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My Inner Correction Facility – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 760

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The other evening my partner and I watched a documentary about the US prison system. Now one exercise that I often will do when looking at different parts of our world system like in this case the prison system is I will look at what that particular point reflects about myself and how it is that I myself exist in the same or similar ways as this kind of system. And I do this exercise based on the principle of “as within so without” this principle representing how our outer reality is actually a reflection of our inner reality and that our world system is actually an outflow and reflection of our inner natures.

So in watching this documentary what did I notice about the similarities of the prison system and myself?

Well one of the first words that comes up is the word ‘Judgement’. Because in a way this is what prison is all about. It is about judgement, and punishment, although it is called a correction facility, it is not actually acting or standing as an actual CORRECTION point, where for instance people that end up in jail are not better off once they get out but are in many cases worse off because now they are a convicted felon which makes it even more difficult to get a job in some cases.

One statistic I found is that Within five years of release, about three-quarters (76.6 percent) of released prisoners were rearrested.

So I was looking at the nature of prisons where you essentially take “Bad” Guys and lock them up as punishment.

That is actually a form of Suppression where instead of dealing with these people, supporting them, educating them, rehabilitating them, we just lock them away.

I though this was interesting because this is in a way how we deal with ourselves and those parts of ourselves that we don’t understand, or those parts of ourselves that we don’t want to look at, that we define as bad, that we judge. Or even if you look at certain emotions, like anger, often times we take these parts of ourselves, and instead of investigating and understanding, and forgiving, and correcting, we just supress them. We take them, and we lock them up inside ourselves, and instead of looking at them and sorting them out, we just lock them away, and then what ends up happening is there is an accumulation affect that takes place and more and more parts of yourself are locked up and essentially abandon and then what ends up happening is you become a mess, you become reactive, or depressed, or stressed because you have a build up of emotions, and you have memories and thoughts, and beliefs and voices in your head that you have no idea where they are coming from or how to make sense of it.

So, what is the Solution.

For me I see the responsibility I have is to stop locking up parts of myself, but rather to face those parts of myself. Just as each and every crime or criminal that exists on this earth is a mirror for us to look at ourselves and see a part of ourselves and that to recognize that its not about judgement, it is about understanding how these crimes or criminals were created, so that we can change the conditions of our world system so that these particular crimes become obsolete or these types of criminal behaviours have no environment that fosters them.

A correction facility should NOT be about judgement and punishment. And so I can begin with myself and those parts of myself that I have judged and deemed as bad or criminal And to work with all my inner criminals as thoughts, judgements, past memories, pressured emotions, so they can become rehabilitated,  truly corrected, and released. To become a contributing member of the society that is me.

I can do this through my process of Writing, Self Forgiveness, Self Introspection and Investigation and then Self Correction as the practicing and Living the new behavior, the new instructions.

And so in this way create within myself an actual REAL Self Correction Facility and thus become the change I want to see in the world.

HERE NOW DONE! – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 710

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Today I had some experiences that were going on within me over the last few days start to come out into my physical reality where I started reacting towards my partner and speaking with her in a very specific tonality of irritation that was not my normal, stable, tonality of my natural expression of me.

I was seeing that I was becoming increasingly impatient with my partner and so have come to see that a point that I had not fully investigated is “where am I becoming impatient with myself”?

In asking myself this question I could see that I actually, in and as myself, have a particular point of being impatient with myself in relation to different things where I just want to have things HERE NOW DONE.

Last week my partner and I started working on a long-term project together and in doing this many points and potentials were opened up and now here all these points were, hanging in front of me and I started getting excited at seeing all of these potentials and at the same time, wanted these potentials to be HERE DONE NOW!

So in looking at all this, considering the new project now opening up and considering my tendency to want things here, done, now, I realized that my impatience that I was experiencing in relation to my partner was not really to do with my partner but was rather my own impatience.

So here again is another reminder of the necessity of always ‘bringing the point back to self’

Within identifying this tendency I have to be impatient when it comes to creating different outcomes in my reality, I realize that the Solution for this was and is for me to take a deep breath, and ground myself back to the physical flesh of this reality and realizing that my impatience was based on an impractical view of reality, instead of seeing and considering how reality actually works.

Its like for instance, when learning a new language, you have to practice with this, you have to learn the new words and meanings to words and you have to practice this through time. Languages have thousands of words, to learn a new language there is in FACT a time-space process that must occur as you learn new words each day over a certain amount of time until you know all the words – This is a practical learning process. With my own impatience, I experience this point of wanting to learn it all HERE, DONE, NOW and not consider the Physical Flesh Reality that things take time learn. Things take time to create, step by step, point by point, breath by breath.

So for me it is necessary to bring myself back to reality with this point. Breathe, and simply walk, doing the necessary daily activities to create the point/outcome I am aiming for. And to let go of any irrational impatience that comes up within me where I am wanting reality to bend to my desire and to what I observed as a ‘fear of loss’ so that I can eat my cake right now and skip the part of actually  preparing baking it.

So I commit myself to release myself from my misinformed version of reality of how things are created through by when ever I experience this point of impatience existing within me, to in that moment, take a deep breath, bring myself back here, and remind myself that if I want something created, I simply must walk the real-time process of creating it step by step, and so thus then align myself with this practical approach of creation and let go of my mental idealized version of creation where things happen at the speed of thought.

So I commit myself to assist and support myself to ground myself within and as BREATH into and as the physical flesh and time of this reality, realizing that to create things in this reality and within oneself, one requires to walk a time and space process, creating the point step by step, I have identified my own tendency to want to rush things and have them here already and so I commit myself to be patient with myself and to breathe when ever I see myself going into impatience, to breathe and ground myself back to here, back to the physical and to align myself with practical physical real-time creation, working within the rules of this actual reality to support myself in creating the points I would like to within myself and my life.

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A COMPLETE Success – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 700

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Success Expanded.

This is a continuation from my previous blog –  SUCCESS – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 699

So what I am investigating here is how to take the polarity out of the definition of the word success and how to make it something that is supportive for oneself within the living expression of its definition where the design of the definition can support oneself in a way to nurture ones highest potential.

Is my current definition of the word success limiting me or causing problems within my life?

Using comparison to define success may not be necessary because success can be a very personal thing. Success can something unique to the individual.

I can see that part of my definition of success did include being better than others. Being a leader. Being someone who others could aspire to be like which ultimately implied that “I had to be better” and that they had to be less than me.

Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to be less than me so that I could be someone they aspire to be like.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word ‘success’ within a point of comparison, where I actually required others to be less than me so that I could achieve my definition of success which in part existed as this picture and idea of myself as a leader and someone who is standing above others within a point of superiority where then within this superiority, others would want to be like me because I am so ‘successful’ and have achieved so much.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize, and understand that for me to be successful doesn’t have to depend on others not being success.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have defined success in relation to others where I have always or at least mostly measured my level of success according to how and who and what I am compared to how, who, and what others are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have adopted societies definition of success which contains comparison as part of its definition and that I have not redesigned my definition and living of success to be that which is supportive for all and best for all and supports myself and life to exist and express to its utmost potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strive after my personal success only and to not consider everyone else around me in my life and consider the side-affect that my actions has on them from the perspective of considering how I am able to also support my entire reality to achieve success instead of only seeing myself and considering myself and not seeing that I am part of a bigger reality and that to support the fulfilment of success within other aspects of my reality other than just my own would be a more complete and substantial living and expression of success.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to focus my day to day activities only on achieving my own personal success, not realizing that to support the success of more than just me is a more substantial success because then suddenly more of the reality that I live in is also benefiting and that in considering others within my expression and application of success is from my perspective a more substantial  achievement and fulfilment than to just only focus on my own personal success without any regard for what happens to others which I see as very limited.

Self Commitments

I commit myself to assist and support myself to consider how success can be expressed within a point of equality where all are successful together, no more accepting and allowing myself to define or see ‘success’ as ‘personal success’ only where I am only focused on me and not considers others in my immediate or greater reality.

I see, realize and understand how I was not actually living or expressing success, because within my ‘achieving success’ I was not considering the side affect this was having on other peoples lives and so considering the whole picture when it came to success. I was also only so much focusing my definition of success on an end goal and not considering the whole process of creating success, and not considering if this process was destructive in ways or abusive, even though there was one point at the end which I defined as success.

I commit myself to considering success as a total expression and a total process and not just something one reaches in a moment where it doesn’t matter what the process of getting there looks like as long as the end result or goal is met and then defining that end point as the success.

I commit myself start integrating and weaving the achievement of success into the entire process there in, where the entire process of creating success is considered in away where it also must embody ‘success’ where success can no more just be an end goal where the process is not as much considered. Also I commit myself to consider ways to align my ‘success goals’ so that more people benefit and also are supported, which ultimately is what I am attempting to achieve for myself within my endeavors for success. I am attempting to achieve support for myself. And so I see here that SUPPORT is a form a success. I also see that empowerment is an equivalent to success where when I am looking at what I define as success, it normally encompasses a point of self empowerment where I am empowered. So this is also a point I can consider as something practical I can consider in terms of looking at how to expand my target when it comes to success where I expand my target from simply being the singular point of myself into the target of empowering as many as possible as a point within my new definition and application of ‘Success’.

When and as I see myself wanting myself to be more than others which I define as a form of success, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand that this does not in fact create success but it actually creates friction and conflict because now I am pitting myself against others, and wanting others to remain down so that I can fulfil and live out my definition of success. I see, realize, and understand that this accepted and allowed definition of success is flawed and limited and so therefore I commit myself to assist and support myself to when I am looking at how I can live the word success to consider the impact my actions and direction has on others and to within this look at and consider and find ways to not only empower myself but to empower the most people possible where the utmost expression of success is within empowering as many as possible where to just focus on myself is only a very limited version of success, and so I commit myself to assist and support myself to push myself and direct myself into a more complete expression of success through by finding ways to empower and support the achievement of success in as many dimensions possible of my own life as well as others lives equally where I consider the impact of my actions, and application on others and my environment as well and not just myself alone.

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Self Change and the ‘Weakened Spirit’ – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 668

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I am here to write my blog now. I have been finding that I have been quite easily discouraging myself from writing my blog recently.

Today I listened to 2 of the more recent reptilian interviews from Eqafe. One of the terms that came up that was being discussed in the interviews was the term ‘weakened spirit’. I thought this was quite a cool term to bring up because of how I could relate to it quite allot.

So this term ‘weakened spirit’ was being referenced in relation to how many beings experience themselves in relation to their process of self change.

I would suggest to invest in these interviews because they are quite supportive and go into specific detail about how to actually change oneself.

What I find is that I create myself to be this ‘weakened spirit’ through by seeing what it is that I have to do with regards to self change but then I do not do it but just allow old programs and thought patterns and behavior patterns to direct me in a moment instead of actually Living and Moving myself into and as the new change that I see I would like to be and realize how and where I must apply myself to become this.

But then I create myself as the ‘weakened spirit’ because when the moment or moments of change arrive, I won’t change. I will not assert myself in that moment and strengthen my spirt and strengthen my beingness and so over time this accumulates until what I have found is that my general normal experience becomes like this soft, weak, submissive state.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create myself as a weakened spirit through by continuously allowing myself to give into my mind instead of changing in those moments, and asserting myself as the change I would like to be, and so over time, as the moments of non-change accumulate I become this ‘weakened spirit’. The ‘weakened spirit’ as the opposite of what I would actually like to be and also that I understand how to be but that I have not moved and directed myself to Stop myself in the moment of change from accepting and allowing myself to exist as and be directed by as the pre-programmed thoughts, feelings, and emotions and to thus instead actually asserting myself as the NEW Direction and Action I see will Support me to become a Strong Spirit and Strong Being.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to slow myself down so that I can pin-point more specifically moments of change. Moments of change that I see I have at times accepted and allowed to become distant and more easily able to pass by without me correcting myself in those moments and so in this strengthening myself within and through becoming that who I’d like to be which is a Self Honest Being living with Integrity and Self Respect no more being here on earth simply to serve my own Self Interest, and existing as a pre-programmed robot following instructions and programs that I have conditioned into myself from the world around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pass by ‘moments of change’ easily and in doing this condition myself to be a weakened spirit and so here I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to stop passing moments of change by easily where instead of doing this I in the moment of change actually change myself through by Directing Myself within the necessary corrections and so to within doing this consistently develop and create myself into and as Self Strength. And so here I commit myself to stop letting moments of change pass-by without a fight meaning where I actually start to Take-On moments of change that arise though pushing and directing myself to in fact change, and thus making myself more Prominent within myself in such moments, instead of sitting in the background and watching the moment of change pass on by.

When and as I see a moment of change Here and I see that point or experience within me of where I start to justify allowing the moment to pass by where even though I seen that this is a moment of change, I still allowed myself to not bother actually correcting myself in that moment and actually changing me, when I see this Here, I in that moment, stop myself within myself. Here, I realize that the only way for me to Re-create myself from a ‘weakened spirit’ into a ‘strong spirit’ is to In FACT actually change change/correct myself in such moments and stop accepting and allowing myself to let such moments pass by. And so rather become more Prominent within myself in such moments, and here becoming ALIVE in such moments, no more accepting and allowing myself to lay dormant in the background and not asserting MYSELF to Be HERE and Self Directive and actually change.

And so here I commit myself to assist and support myself to start actualizing these moments into moments of change. Moment by moment, bit by bit accumulating each of these moments into moments of change instead of moments of giving into the mind.

Within this process also I commit myself to work on slowing down as I am walking my day. This I do to assist and support myself to actually be able to make the transition and/or shift within myself of “passing by moments of change” to in the moment, actually changing. I see here that supporting myself to slow myself down as I am here walking my day will support me in this process of moving from “passing by moments of change” to “actually changing” because this “passing by” application I see has become quite automated and so the point of slowing down will allow me to actually ‘catch myself’ and thus being able to stop that automated behavior of sitting back and letting moments of change pass by,  and so I see here the value in supporting myself and remembering to slow myself down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pass by moments of change through by thinking and experiencing within myself “its no use”

I commit myself to assist and support myself to flag-point this statement and experience of “its no use” as I see that this statement and experience has become like a kind of oil that I allow moments of change to slide by on. And so here I commit myself to assist and support myself to stop allowing moments of change to just slide by along the statement and experience of “its no use” where in this I become a passive observer in the background instead of becoming more Prominent and Here within myself, taking charge of moments of change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that “its no use” in relation to actually stopping and correcting moments of change when I see they are here because I have not wanted to change.

I commit myself to when and as I am facing a moment of change and the statement and experience of “its no use” comes up, to in that moment stop myself and bring the awareness here that in by accepting and allowing myself to actually participate with this statement of “its no use” and so thus allow the moment of change to pass-by, that in doing this I am simply perpetuating and solidifying myself more and more as a “weakened spirit” and so here to bring the awareness forth that I in fact do not like existing as a “weakened spirit” and only I can and will determine who I will be in this life, and that the longer I wait to change, the more I simply remain as this “weakened spirit” And that the only way to change this is through by actually Changing Myself when moments of change are Here.

and so

I commit myself to when a moment of potential change is here to stop sitting in the background as the passive weakened spirit and just not bothering to change myself but to instead Stand Up and Step Up and assist and support myself to become more Prominent within myself through by actually Standing and Directing myself within and as Self Change when moments of change are here.

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A General Disdain towards…Everything – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 662

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Today I began to open up the point of Anger and looking at and investigating my relationship with anger and how anger is currently existing within myself as a part of myself.

What prompted this investigation is a chat I had earlier with my DIP Pro buddy. When you walk the DIP Pro course with Desteni, one of the benefits is a weekly chat with a buddy which has been a cool support point I have found to assist with getting feedback and suggestions on the points I walk and face each week.

So this week we were discussing the point of anger which I see is not a point I have really taken yet as a point I have specifically looked at and worked with.

There is also a series of videos done on ‘anger management’ that is part of the New Self and Living Website which I have watched the first one (again) which also prompted me to look at some specifics of this point.

What I see for myself is that I have never been too much of an outwardly angry person. I remember when I was younger I used to have ‘temper tantrums’ but that stopped as I got further into my teens.

Yet I do see points of anger within me that are more just kind of there, that has become me, and a part of my daily living that I haven’t yet really looked at and assisted and supported myself with releasing through changing myself in relation to and as this/these point(s) of anger that I have created within me.

I see that I more invert my anger meaning where I don’t much express it outwardly but more just keep it inside me, bottled up, and more just kind of stew inside myself in my anger.

I see there is a general thread of anger within me towards my Life that is pretty much always there. Its like a ‘general bitterness’ towards everything really.

I have also noticed this particular thought emerge within me in the past few years where I think “I must be difficult to be around” and then Id think about those people who become old and bitter and no one wants to be around them and I started thinking “is that me?” Am I becoming this way? and in a way I saw myself as becoming this way. Where id think to myself “man I must tough to be around sometimes because sometimes I am really quite bitter towards everything” where its like this real lack of care towards my environment, myself and others in my world. Yet I will maintain an outwardly upbeat and content expression, yet on the inside I am seeing this disdain and bitterness and thinking that there is no way people are buying this facade I am putting up, because from my perspective this anger experience within me, due to how I experience it within me as being quite saturated, must be quite blatantly oozing through the seams of how I present myself. I can’t be fooling anyone.

So this is what I would like to address.

Is it possible to live without this anger and bitterness and frustration experience within me?

What is it going to take to correct myself here and let go of this inner experience of frustration/anger/bitterness/disdain that I see I carry with me.

I have noticed that this more recently has become a dominant experience of myself where its like much of the time I am walking around like a scrooge! I have noticed this about myself and it has concerned me.

What is happening to me?

Why is this anger and frustration towards myself and towards everything becoming more?

Alright so, I just wanted to here take that first step of begging to open up my relationship to and as anger.

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Physically Moving Through Mental Obstacles – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 658

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Ok so in this blog I actually have gone back to a point I started walking 4 months ago but did not finish completely. WOW – Lol. I have always had this discomfort within me in relation to when I have started walking points in my blog and then abandon them. It really gave me this urk-sum experience where I just felt dirty, as I attempted to simply sweep the points under the rug because I saw this point within me of “I will likely never get back to that”  So it was like having all this unfinished business or points opened up within me that I never brought to a close. Ok Well Here I have gone back actually and completed a point that I began but never followed through on – Coool!

Here in this blog I am finishing off the process of walking the Self Commitment Statements in relation to the Self Forgiveness walked in:

A Practical Real-Alignment of – Living What is Best For ALL – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 633

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to react in anxiety at the idea/prospect of “Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all”

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tense up inside me in my solar plexus where I experience a kind of restriction and tension within myself in relation to “Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all” ; where here I see this ‘tensing up’ inside myself is where I am like pulling myself back, or holding myself back or stopping myself from actually crossing or walking through that LINE that I have placed within myself that determines who I have accepted and allowed myself to be within and as Self Interest where within crossing that line that I have placed within me and moving/directing me within and as myself into and as “Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all” that I no more would have the same experiences or points within my life that I can ensure remain as part of my life within making sure I never cross that line from my current living as being Conditioned within Self Interest, into “Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all” and where here here Id protect who I have accepted and allowed myself to currently exist as even when that which I am protecting is in fact different forms of abuse and limitation as accepting and allowing Self Interest to be my starting point of who I am, how I live and what I accept and allow to exist within and as me.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to see, realize, and understand that to Direct myself within the context of doing what is best for all is actually best for me, and most supportive for me and so logically speaking, will be the most enjoyable and so I commit myself to assist and support myself to remember and realize this in moments where I am resisting doing what is in fact best for all and best for me. To remember that if it is best for me then I will in fact in the long run get the most out of it and that is what I find in most enjoy, I most enjoy when I really ‘do the right thing’ so to speak.

I commit myself to assist and support myself when and as I see myself tensing up in my solar plexus at the prospect of Living What is Best For ALL, to stop and breathe. I see that this tenseness and this restriction is related to expectations that I am creating for myself and ultimately judging myself against where I create this projection of who I believe I should be in relation to this point of “living what is best for all” and then to compare myself as who I really am at the moment to this and then judge myself for not being what I created in the projection, And so here I commit myself to assist and support myself to rather focus on the moment I am in and Who I am Currently in my Process of becoming and endeavoring to Live what is best for all in all ways, and to look at my Current Reality and assess for myself what points I can work on and assist and support myself within changing and thus shift my attention from these projections of who I think I should be in relation to “Living what is best for all” and shifting this to the current moment and what is here and what I can work with in my current reality moment to assist and support within my process of becoming and endeavoring to Live “What is Best for ALL” in all ways.

And so here I commit myself to keep is simple and simply work with taking ‘baby steps’ if you will in my process of learning to Live and Stand within and as What is Best for ALL.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing parts of myself and life that has been designed within the image and likeness of Self Interest.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to realize that I am able to support myself in my process of Self Change by making simple small changes within my world that does not have to be extreme changes but just here allowing myself to change little things within my world reality as a point of assisting and supporting myself with becoming more malleable within who I am so that I can let go of the death grip I have of my current routine and how I do things day in and day out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not even dare cross that line, or approach that line and where ultimately I have believed myself to be incapable of actually walking out of my life of Self Interest/giving up self interest into “Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all”

I commit myself to assist and support myself to physically direct myself through that internal resistance that comes up within me when ever I go into resistance towards doing something that I see is actually best for me. What is interesting is that most often if not every single time, this resistance isn’t actually a physical obstacle that is in my way that is preventing me from doing that thing/task/point that I see is best for me, the resistance is mental, and so here I commit myself to assist and support myself to physically move myself into the tasks/points that I see are best for me but that I am resisting and so here in physically moving into doing the task, I am practically walking through the mental resistance as Mental Obstacles in relation to them and so here no more accepting and allowing this mental resistance to direct me, control me and dominate me within my process of Self Change and developing myself into and as doing and living what is best for all in each moment.

I see, realize, and understand that this Resistance is simply a point that I must direct myself through and that just because it comes up within me does not indicate that I can not now do that thing that I see and have identified is best for me. I realize that I am able to actually direct myself to walk through this resistance and when I do this, that at times the resistance will dissipate as I move more into directing myself within the physical point/task that I have identified would be best for me to do and so here I commit myself to assist and support myself to stop allowing this resistance experience that comes up as mental obstacles in relation to the point of doing what is best for all, to direct me or obstruct me in my physical application and self movement in living what is best for all and best for me.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to incorporate Living this Principle of what is best for all into all the dimensions of “thought”, “word” and “deed” where the ‘thought’ dimension is the inner reality of myself as my thoughts, feelings, and emotions, and imaginations, projections, fears, pictures in the mind and backchat. And the “word” dimension being my speech and communication and the “deed” dimension being my behavior and so here I commit myself to assist and support myself within all three of these dimensions, identifying where a particular aspect of that dimension is not in alignment with what is best for all and there-in assisting and supporting myself to finding practical solutions to changing it and transforming it in and as myself so that It and I stand in alignment with what is best for all in that particular dimension of me, so step by step, slowly but surely aligning all of myself to stand Equal and One to and as the Principle of Living what is best for all in all ways in each and every moment.