Reacting Emotionally to Work Decisions – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 775

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Today was my first day back at work after taking some time off. I was somewhat tentative my first day back, moving into the day slowly and just taking my time moving into things again. So, I am not yet in the ‘full-swing’ of things. My observations about today was that I did or am wondering why I was apprehensive in terms of getting things going again after my time off and why I didn’t just dive in and get things moving with more force, certainty and directivness, but instead was more feeling things out.

I can see that there is some slight reactions within me in relation how I approached today. Before my break, I was pushing myself to work longer hours and was more just overall at a point of wanting to push things.

Overall I would prefer to have a more relaxed application with work, where I didn’t feel so strained or rushed which is how things came to eventually materialize before I took a break. So as I move back into my work application again one thing I would like to investigate, and explore is my relationship with time and money as well as feeling rushed or strained at work and basically investigating what I can do support myself to have a more balanced and stable experience when it comes to work. I am satisfied with how things are at the moment in terms of what I have to work with to support myself to continue to explore, refine, specify, correct, and create my “working-Life” relationship. Though ultimately it is simply my LIFE overall and ‘working’ is just an aspect of that.

Physically my back was quite sore after work today. Daaaaannng. Like quite sore indeed. My Job is very much a physical job and my physical well-being is important to the application and sustenance of my job so any time I have physical ailments It does have the potential to bring up some reactions such as fears and such.

So today, going to work after some time off and then having some nice back pain after work is definitely some FeedBACK in terms of now what to focus on tomorrow and consistently as I am taking on such physical work

I also had some Emotional Reactions coming up today in relation to some decisions I had to make regarding some direction with my job. That is one thing that, when it came up today, I noticed had been missing from my life since taking some time off. So this is definitely a KEY for me as a point to Support myself to Correct with my Job. Here I can practice making Decisions without getting emotional. It was interesting to have these specific emotional points come up again today. As I noticed them coming up, it was alike alarm bells going off where I was like “Heeeyyyyyy I haven’t had these types of thoughts in a while” and so realizing that these specific natured emotional reactions I have in relation to making particular decisions at work are quite specific to my job and indicating clearly an aspect of myself to Correct.

So this is actually quite cool because I am seeing this now as perhaps one of the more ‘important’ things that came from today where moving forward now I will support myself to Stabilize myself in relation to these specific emotional points that come up when facing particular decision points and projects related to my work.

 

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Unwinding Irritation – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 758

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The point here at the moment is ‘irritation’. I have noticed since getting home from work that things seem to be irritating me. I equate this to a few changes in some habits/routines lately where my mind is not getting the usual stimulus or the usual experiences it normally does so this irritation is a kind of symptom of withdraw from what its normally used to. But I also see that I actually tend to have days during the week where I feel irritated and highly strung where its like every little thing gets me irritated.

One dimension that I can see about my irritation experience at the moment is the ‘Time’ Dimension. What I am noticing is that tonight in particular I am feeling pressed for time. As I mentioned in my last blog, I have taken on a new project at work which requires more time to be put in at work as well as there being a tighter deadline for everything.

Today during the day, I did notice how I was giving more attention to the idea that “tonight I have a lot to do” So I was already thinking about this at work earlier, and when I got home tonight, my experience was similar – that I had a limited amount of time with a number of things that I needed to complete.

Today, I was also having the experience that I was behind in a couple things where I was participating in mental projections about this, and playing out in my mind, other peoples reactions to my view that I was late on a few things that I needed to get done.

So I can see how in participating throughout my day in these internal projections and playouts in my mind about how other people were reacting to my apparent lateness actually accumulate stress reactions within myself and so I am seeing my irritation tonight as an accumulation of all these accumulated stress points that I generated through participating within projections within my mind without awareness during the day/week

Okay, so I thought I would just open up a few dimensions to this irritation point for myself here in this blog to see more specifically what is happening and why I was suddenly experiencing this irritation for apparently no reason. Because there is always a reason for how we experience ourselves, and the fact that the ‘irritation’ seemed to come out of nowhere, indicated to me a perfect opportunity to learn something about myself and my experience that I wasn’t aware of before because if I was Self Aware, I wouldn’t suddenly be irritated ‘out of no-where’

I will often do this with point, where I will simply start with what ever experience is here in the moment, and I will start writing about it and opening it up as a basic way to develop self awareness and take Self Responsibility for Myself , My Life, and My Experiences and actually Empower myself instead of accepting and allowing experiences to ‘happen to me’ out of the blue and accept them as if there is nothing I can do.

Seeing ANGER as All-Mighty – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 618

Today as I was sitting down to eat my lunch, an argument started between 2 strangers at the table behind me. I immediately tensed up inside myself and my attention went onto the argument that was taking place behind me.

What was interesting here is that firstly I became very uncomfortable in my body, like, now suddenly I was not able to enjoy my food because I was overcome by this point of discomfort.

What also happened is that I myself started to get angry and upset inside myself and started to experience this point of wanting to turn around and ‘say something’ where in this, what would be happening is that I would in fact be now participating in this argument and in the emotional reactions within this.

It was strange how this experience came up within me because technically ‘I had nothing to do with the situation’ . No one was arguing with me, yet I started to experience myself as if I was part of the argument and I started to experience anger inside myself and also noticing this point of discomfort very much.

My reaction to the argument was very much pre-programmed.

I see that I have actually pre-programmed myself to react in fear when ever a situation like this occurs.

The question came up within me – Why I am not simply Absolutely Stable Here within myself. After all, technically, I was not a part of the altercation.

But man I could see all sorts of reactions coming up inside myself towards the various individuals who were arguing where suddenly within myself I was speaking and lashing out towards each one of them in my mind. So I found this quite interesting how this argument in way ‘leapt’ over to me and now I am going through a similar experience as those 2 individuals who were actually engaging in the argument.

Why was this?

Why did this happen?

How did this happen?

I was taught that it was not nice to call names.

I was also taught to overall just ‘be nice’

So I see that my interactions with people I dont know very well or who are strangers  is quite cordial and I find that I do not like arguing.

I find this point of getting into an argument with another to be a very vulnerable state because Its like I am showing a side of myself that I don’t normally show and so in a way to argue with someone can for me be somewhat personal. So to argue with a complete stranger is almost like going up to them and giving them a kiss on the cheek! – Ok not quite. But I do see this point within myself of how within arguing with another creates a point of vulnerability – It is like a form of intimacy in a way.

So I see a point here I can support myself with.

To assist and support myself to remain stable when ever a point of arguing or altercations takes place around me or even towards me. I realized today that my reaction was very much pre-programmed and I realized that I did not have to in fact react in this experience of discomfort, and that additionally I did not have to automatically go into a similar/same experience of anger as those who were arguing. I see that I can simply be here and remain stable within myself and that just because others are going into anger does not mean I have to.

In a way my reaction was submissive instead of Directive and standing equal to the point. What I mean is that when the argument started taking place, my automatic reaction was to ‘shrink down’ in relation to the altercation where within myself I perceived and experienced myself as inferior towards the point.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to automatically go into a stance of ‘inferiority’ towards/in relation to the argument/altercation that happened today at lunch time. I see, realize and understand that my reaction of going into ‘inferiority’ in relation to facing such a point of conflict was/is a pre-programmed reaction where I have essentially programmed myself throughout my life to react this way to conflict and in this I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize, and understand that my reaction today to the argument/altercation taking place where I went into a point of ‘inferiority’ and ‘shrinking down’ within myself was pre-programmed and that I am able to assist and support myself to change this pre-programmed stance into a Self Directive Stance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to automatically react in fear and thus go into IN-FEAR-iority in relation to conflict as arguments, fights, altercations happening around me or towards me and here I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to automatically go into a point of ‘fear’ towards other peoples ‘anger’ which I see is actually just their own reactions that they are having in relation to how they have programmed themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take other peoples reactions personally, not realizing that they are simply in reaction as the way they have programmed themselves to respond to certain events/situations and that these reactions have been built up through sequence throughout a persons life which then possess them in a single moment.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to when and as I see myself reacting to other peoples anger or reactions or see myself reacting when I see/observe conflict or arguments, or altercations in my reality to when I see myself starting to react or wanting to react to stop and take a breath and realize that it is ok for me to remain Stable within myself in the face of such events.

I see, realize, and understand that I am able to assist and support myself to change my accepted and allowed ‘reaction’ towards this point of conflict within my reality as arguments, yelling, altercations, and to rather than just accept and allow my pre-programmed play-out reaction which is to react in fear, and thus also inferiority or to also ‘get worked up myself’ when I notice other people getting worked up – so rather than allow this pre-programmed reaction I here commit myself to assist and support myself to Change this programmed reaction into a Self Directive Decision where I Decide to Stand within and as myself as Self Responsible meaning – I can Decide for myself how I will respond to the situation and thus here within and as Self Responsibility I commit myself to when faced with this point of conflict as arguments/altercations in my reality,  to Breath and Realize that I am able to Simply be HERE within and as my Human Physical Body and it is not necessary for me to go into reactions. Rather I commit myself to when I am faced with such points of conflict to assist and support myself to Remain Stable. I see that reacting in fear towards conflict is in fact a programmed reaction and that I here commit myself to assist and support myself to Stand Equal to the moment, meaning where here I see that there is no actual reason for me to go into reaction and so I give myself permission to Simply Remain Stable and so thus here I can when faced with these such moments of conflict in my reality assist and support myself to Breath and push myself to Stand Stable and not react and not go into my automated pre-programmed reaction of fear.

I see it makes no sense for me to react to other individuals pre-programmed reactions that they have constructed over a life time. For me to react is quite short-sighted and indicating that I have failed to see/realize/understand what is actually going on here when someone would for instance ‘react in a point of anger towards another’.

I see that I have given ‘anger’ power over me and in this not realizing that it is simply just another point of programming as an emotional reaction that one had constructed within ones mind and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give anger this status of being “all mighty” not in fact seeing that anger is simply just another programed reaction, just like any other positive or negative emotion/feeling – it is a program.

I commit myself to see ‘anger’ for what it is as being a programmed reaction and so thus to stop giving it ‘special importance’ as if ‘it is something that is supposed to be revered’ and to within this assist and support myself to change myself here as my reaction to ‘anger’ or ‘confrontations’ or ‘arguments’ – changing my reaction from fear and inferiority to firstly stabilizing myself so to be able to See, Direct myself/the point clearly instead of out of reaction.

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Holding Myself Hostage in What I Love To Do – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 616

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear ‘letting go of art’ which doesn’ t mean that I must stop doing art, It simply means that I am able to be Absolutely Self Directive with this point where I decide to either do it or not do it and this decision is not based on a ‘fear of losing it’ as an emotional experience or any emotional/feeling experience for that matter,  which I see that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as in relation to my decision making around the point of Art as a part of my life/myself

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I am in fact able to let go of doing art and explore other avenues of careers and skills and that within this, I will be fine because I see, realize, and understand that it is not about what I do but who I am. And so again here to emphasize the point of assisting and supporting myself to release myself from any emotional connections that I have with Art/Doing Art so that I can establish myself within and as Absolute Directive Principle within and as this.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing art from the perspective of believing that ‘this job is so cool’ and that I will never find anything else like it and so here I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within such an acceptance and allowance through by accepting and allowing myself to believe that “I will be missing something” if I stop doing art and move  into exploring other avenues of career or skill development.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let art/my accepted and allowed relationship with art control me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become possessed by art within the context of where my relationship with art currently is one of ‘control’ where I am not Self Directive within my decision to do art or not do art but that this decision is still based on FEAR and Emotional/Feeling Reactions – Here I see an accepted and allowed Fear of Not doing Art that I have accepted and allowed to control me and create a possessive state where I fear making a decision to not do art in this not Realizing that I will be fine within such a decision and so

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize, and understand that I will be fine within ‘doing something else’ and that ultimately I will be fine to let art go as I see realize and understand that it is an extensive limitation of Self by in a way ‘holding myself hostage’ within my relationship to art, within the beliefear (belief and fear) that art is what makes me happy and without it I will diminish or be limited.

I Commit myself to assist and support myself to work on this point of ‘allowing myself to let art go’. Here I see, realize, and understand that ‘art does not bring me happiness/enjoyment’ but that I am the source of my own happiness/enjoyment and so from this perspective it does not matter what I do because I am always the one who is Responsible for my enjoyment/expression/experience of myself.

I commit myself to throughout my day check myself as a point of ‘reminder’ if you will where I can assist and support myself to do regular ‘art check-ups’ to make sure that I am not falling back into a relationship of fear and control with art, but that I am in each moment throughout my day able to ‘give it up in a single breath’ realizing that I am HERE and that Art does not define me or determine who I am.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to transform my relationship with art to one based on Equality and Oneness where Art has no more or less value than anything else in this existence and so therefore there is no reason for me hold it as being ‘more than’ which then creates a ‘fear of loss’ or even a kind of ‘dependency’ relationship through my accepting and allowing myself to believe that without it I am in fact losing something.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to realize that its ok to not do art and so I commit myself to assist and support myself to disentangle myself from my accepted and allowed relationship with/as art so that I no more exist within and as the context of fear and control and emotional/feeling reactions in relation to art  but that I am simply stable and thus I within this Re-establish my Directive Principle within and as Myself in relation to art and thus can then Direct myself in relation to my participation/expression/relationship with art  within the context of Directing myself within Practicality, Common Sense, and What is Best for ALL, instead of making decisions around this point based on Fear and Anxiety and emotional/feeling possession.

 

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You Attack Me, I Attack You, You Attack Me, I Attack You, You Attack Me, I attack You, STOOOOOOOOP! – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 560

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This is a continuation from my previous blog – Are Intentions Behind Humor Actually Mean Spirited?- An Artists Journey To Life: Day 559

I see, realize, and understand that I reacted to ‘y’ defining me as bitter because within this I felt that ‘y’ was ‘attacking’ and so my reaction was a ‘how dare you’ reaction and was not so much related to the point of bitterness per-se but more to the point that I felt as though I was being attacked and so here, When and as I see myself reacting to ‘y’ due to seeing/perceiving ‘y’ as ‘attacking’ me, I stop and I breath and I remainbreathing as a point of stabilizing myself where I do not accept and allow myself to participate with my reaction that came up in ‘feeling attacked’. Here I commit myself to assist and support myself to stop competing against ‘y’ and against others which would be one dimension of why I would react to someone perceiving someone ‘attacking’ me.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to identify all points of ‘bitterness’ in my life where in this I investigate myself within my day’s participation and identify where a point of ‘bitterness’ would come up towards a certain point or moment or person and to within this, assist and support myself to no more accept and allow myself to exist in a automated way where these ‘points of bitterness’ go unchecked and unnoticed really, and so thus here I commit myself to pinpoint all these moments as a point of assisting and supporting myself to identify this particular frequency and point and thus stopping it as I see to allow a point of ‘bitterness’ to come up within me in relation to any point within my reality that it is from my perspective indicating a point within me that is ‘out of alignment’ from the perspective of actually aligning myself to and living in a way that is best for all and actually best for myself within and as Equality and Oneness. Thus the bitterness would indicate where I am still accepting and allowing myself to exist within blame or judgement towards something and thus having an opinion about something instead of seeing that point as it is as simply a point of life that is here Equal and One with and as Myself.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to walk the daily process of aligning myself in and as a point of Equality and Oneness with ALL that is here and so thus within this, to walk the process of Self Forgiveness and thus to Forgive myself and forgive what I perceive others have done so to thus bring myself to a point of being able to exist HERE without judgement or reaction towards what is here.

I commit myself to stop justifying my reactions as I see that I have allowed a tendency and pattern of acting in/out of reactions where I will justify this as if I am justified in my ‘response/reaction’ even though I can see that within myself there is an energetic reaction stimulating me and thus stimulating my ‘response’ that is NOT a Self Directed Response but rather a Response done in reaction that only perpetuate the energy battle ensuing like I am a sorcerer throwing lighting at my opponent in an epic batter of sorcery where each participant is going back and forth in energy reactions that is like electricity charged up within oneself that one then project and lash out onto/towards another as a form of attack that is in no way a ‘response’ done as a point of Self Direction spoken/acted within and as Self Stability that is not emotionally/feeling charged up electricity as energy with the intentof energetically assaulting another as a retaliation for such ‘abuses’ perceived to have had done unto oneself by the other where the point here would simply be to breath when ever I see this energy war starting to emerge and to simply forgive the other being for committing such an action and to thus also forgive myself for wanting to retaliate instead of immediately moving into a point of Self Correction to Align oneself into and as a point of Support for life within the principle of what is best for all within and as Equality and Oneness.

 

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Reactions Compounding Into Resistance- An Artists Journey To Life: Day 538

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Today was quite a busy day at work. When it is busy at work I am required to interact with allot different people and also to process different orders and overall essentially multitasking to ensure the flow of the operations.

The past 3 days I have been working with the point of developing my ability and capacity to perform these different functions at work, particularly when it comes to interacting with people who are essentially the customers that come into my place of work to potentially buy our products.

Recently I have had allot of reactions and resistances coming up in relation to this entire process and specifically also in relation to interacting with people, particularly within the context of doing sales where I am standing within the position of being the Sales Man, something which I surely was not ‘programmed’ to be as throughout my life I have actually tended towards being more of a loner and just preferring to be alone and spend timewith myself or just a small group of friends.

So when I started in the job I am working in now, interacting with people in this sales setting was one of the points which I have had to stand within and develop myself to be able to do effectively. There are many timeswhere I want to give up and think and believe “this is not working” or “this is never going to work” and there are other times when things seem to be going well.

Over the past while, I have noticed that my ‘negative’ experience in relation to walking this point has been accumulating more and more and I have specifically noticed this.

I noticed that my ‘experience’ was becoming more intense in terms of the resistance coming up towards walking this point the days that I was working on the sales floor. I also noticed that the excuse and justifications that I came up with in my mind as the back-chat that I speak to myself within the privacy of my own mind were becoming more and more. What I noticed is that I was not stopping myself essentially from creating the reactionsthat I was having and within this it was becoming increasingly more difficult to go to work form the perspective of me not really feeling like I want to be there and where things just were not seeming to work and thus then the frustration and anger and reactions and other various mental experiences was building, and the more I didn’t direct these reactions, the more reactions came up and the more my experiencesbecome uncomfortable.

The point that I am seeing now is that I am having reactions and that I cannot really trust the effectiveness of the point I am currently standing within as my current job until I can stand and function within that point within a point of having zero reactions. I see that as long as I am having reactions that I cannot really trust my ‘opinion’ of the position I am in because thus, my ‘opinion’ is beign affected and influenced by the reactions that I am having. Where reactions are the energetic experiences and thoughts and judgements I have coming up that I have created within myself that is like “how I view the world” through my own personal religion of self, and that this personal religion of self is absolutely and utterly BIAS based on how I was raised and the morals I was programmed with through my family, culture, upbringing ext.

To step into a Sales Position is for me stepping “out of character” in a way at least, is an Opportunity to do so.

What I have found is that I can still hold onto my own personal religion while walking this point which then in fact interfere with me really embracing this new endeavor, or I can really let go of all my preconceived opinions and allow myself to actually learn something new.

So far I have been up and down. Meaning I will at times realize that my uncertainties and doubts I have about the point is based on my own pre-programming and own personal religion of self and so thus I will stop myself from going into this and thus give myself the opportunity to actually learn something new. Where other times, I will fall and sink into just accepting my pre-programmed way of being which would really resist and react to a point like “being a sales man” simply based on how I was programmed through what I was taught through my life time.

So during the last few days, I have been supporting myself to stop my reactions and actually really see how many of the apparent problems, downfalls or limitations I have defined in relation to my job is actually simply “Just me” and really has nothing to do with the job at all.

From my perspective if I have any reaction coming up within me towards my job, than that is my responsibility and thus also indicate that I am really not yet standing in a point of actually optimizing my ability or potential within the point.

I see that I Have been very quick to judge and blame what is around me for my own inability to perform. At this stage I am looking at where and how I am the one who is actually standing in my own way and so am now looking at this point from the starting point of stopping ALL reactions towards my job as a guideline to utilize to assist and support myself to actually develop some effectiveness within this point, instead of doing what I have been doing which is to give in quickly to blame and just blaming the job or the different situations within the job as being the reason why “things aren’t working”

Specifically over the last few days, I have been supporting myself with applying Self Forgiveness on the ALL the reactions I could see coming up at work and in relation to work. This has assisted me during these past few days to actually go to work and stand in that position more effectively than I was able to when I was allowing myself to exist in blame and just allowing my reactions and resistances to run rampant within me.

I have noticed myself opening up allot more in communicating with people where now what I am looking at is the point of simply taking any reactions that come up in relation to any work related point and particularly also the point of communicating/ interacting with others within a sales environment, and thus taking those points/reactions and applying self forgiveness on them to assist and support myself to actually stop accepting and allowingmy reactions to eventually become my resistance which is what happens when I do not assist and support myself within actually investigating my reactions in writing and applying Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application so to be able to stand in a given point without going into or having reactions coming up within me.

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“Just Wanting To Explode” – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 516

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Today, I noticed this point within me of “wanting to go into my mind and react” This “wanting to react” is in relation to a specific point in my reality where when ever I am faced with such a point I have accepted about myself as a  kind of “rule of thumb” that “its ok to react when it comes to dealing with this particular point”

Though what I see as a more effective solution is to not react, but to rather assist and support myself to remain stable and to when ever I feel like reacting or just wanting to go into reaction, to instead take a breath and bring my focus and attention of me out of that point of “wanting to react” and bring that focus and attention to my human physical body where I assist and support myself to Stabilize myself throughout this point that has emerged that I am now facing within my world.

I mean I noticed today that the point of “wanting to react” was here but that if I simply supported myself to remain in breath and instead of just allowing myself to go into the reaction to actually push myself to stabilize myself in breathing and just remain calm, that it did actually support where I experienced myself more stable within myself and less susceptible to more reactions that might take hold once I decide to let myself go into those first few reactions. So I can see how breathing and focusing on being Here with and as my Human Physical Body instead of going into the mind does support in my overall experience of myself.

S0 today at work I could see this point within me of “just wanting to react” where I have accepted this idea that “I react” when certain conditions are present instead of finding a different way to Direct Myself in my world so as to ensure that I am NOT reacting to any points but that I am instead assisting and supporting myself to assess the points with clarity, and with stability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as the point of “wanting to react” from the perspective of seeing this point of “wanting to react” as justified where this has simply always been the way I have handled myself when faced with the points that I am faced with at the moment and so here I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to remain stable within myself where I remain calm and here breathing as I walk through this point to assist and support myself to see the point with clarity as I direct myself to face this point within my reality, which when I react  I am no longer “seeing with clarity” but am rather caught up in a reaction and no more in a position of supporting myself to give me the best opportunity to direct my reality in the best way possible.

I commit myself to allow myself to remain stable as I face and walk through this point I am currently facing in my reality which I would normally just go into reaction  towards because that was my “default reaction” so to speak.

And so here, I commit myself to instead of just going into reacting “which is what I want to do”  to actually walk in Self Stability where I remember to breath and focus on my breath as a point of Stabilizing Myself in and as the Physical.

I realize that reacting does not make things easier, and does not support me in any way to Re-Program myself to face this Situation/Point/My Reality in an Effective Way. I Realize that to assist and support myself to Remain Stable, and Breathing is rather a more supportive way/application to assist me to transform how I handle such situations that normally, I would get to the point of just trying to SUPPRESS through by going into reaction.

I commit myself to transform myself in by walking from this point of experiencing myself “just wanting to react” into an application of remaining here in breath and Self Patience and Stability, I realize that this point of “wanting to react” is not an effective application and so here I commit myself to transform this “approach” to my reality into a new approach where I align myself out of the reactions of the mind and emotions and feelings, and to align myself into and as BREATH, and Hereness And Stability within and as my Human Physical Body and I simply slow myself down when ever I see this “wanting to react” coming up, and to continue practicing slowing down and applying breathing so to assist myself to bring forth a more stable and clear Position and Stance within and as myself so that I can give myself the most effective opportunity possible to see my reality with some clarity so that I can direct myself effectively within Solutions within the context of What Is Best For ALL,  a point that is not necessarily as possible when I am stuck in reactions and going into reactions within myself where when I do this there is no stability within myself and thus I am less effective at seeing my reality with some insight and practical common sense.

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