Using Self Forgiveness to See and Understand Me – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 820

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Today when I woke up I experienced a resistance to getting out of bed mixed with a depression energy. I decided that I would speak some Self Forgiveness on my drive to work and see if I could open up within me what this experience was all about as it has become something of a familiar experience recently in the mornings, particularly when I work.

Initially when I started speaking Self Forgiveness I wasn’t really seeing anything specific and the Self Forgiveness seemed routine and the same ol’ points. However I decided to continue speaking the self forgiveness and after a few minutes I started hitting on points that were more specific and I began seeing and understanding my experience, or at least understanding the point that I was seeing in that moment about my relationship to my own inner experiences and my relationship to my work.

One of the main dimensions that I was seeing within me in relation to my work was that I was stuck in a kind of perpetual blame cycle towards my job where I had at some point decided that “it was my jobs fault” that “its my job that is causing and creating my experience”, “it was my jobs fault that my life is the way it is”

So within the Self Forgiveness I came to understand that I was making my job “more than” me, blaming my job for my current experience and so me not Standing as THEE point within myself as the Source of who I am and my experiences, rather I was in a point of allowing myself to say that it was my job that was the main thing, that “I” was doing everything right and nothing wrong and  that it was my job that was causing and creating my experience, and if my job would just change or be different, then I could go back to an experience that I would prefer, in other words, I was effectively disempowering myself.

So yes, totally giving my power and my responsibility away to this external point within my reality. So the speaking of Self Forgiveness really supported me to see what I have been accepting and allowing of myself in relation to this aspect of my job and I also saw that, how could I reap the fruits that I desire or want from my job if I am constantly blaming and judging and angry towards my job?

That is like having a child and wanting to have a deep, fun, and enjoyable relationship with the child but then raising that child through blaming it, judging it, criticizing it, being angry at it, ect… eventually you are going to create a resentment within the child towards you so in essence,

How can I create the success I am wanting with my job if I am in direct conflict with the very thing I am wanting to support this end. It’s a contradiction. So this was an interesting dynamic to see in the my relationship with my job and realizing here that It’s up to ME to establish a more effective supportive relationship with this particular part of my job that I was in conflict with, beginning with stopping that relationship where I was giving all my power away through blame, by saying “its your fault” so rather, now accepting, and realizing, I am the ONE, I am the SOURCE of my experience and I am the SOURCE of the relationship I create towards, with, as my job and so I must start working with my experience, like that experience I have of resistance and depression in the mornings that I seem to wake up with where for instance if I see this experience coming up again, I know that its connected to and based on the points of blame and abdication of my Self Responsibility in relation to my job and so can support myself to change this through for example, speaking some self forgiveness  and correct myself in those moments and Direct Myself to Stand as the  SOLE Creator of experience and so 100% responsible for them and my relationships that exist as me within my life.

So now going forwards after seeing this today, I am now going to practice identifying that ‘blame signature’ of this particular experience that has been coming through lately so that I can make sure to ALIGN myself according to Supporting myself and Standing as SELF RESPONSIBLE for Myself and my Experience and my Relationship to my Job so that  I can stop and change this experience and see how I can support myself to change my relationship to/within my job so that it is Supportive!

 

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Not Allowing Myself to Do Things Differently – An Artists Journey To Life: day 73

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “hold onto my life the way it is” where in I hold onto exactly how my life is now because I do not want to give up doing those things that I like about my life, and thus have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to compromise on such points, not realizing that what I am doing “holding onto my life the way it is” and not allowing myself to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist going into work on “unexpected” days because I want my life to be how it is now and do not want to change this.

I forgive myself for not realizing that the process I am walking is in fact walking myself out of my “old life” as how I have pre-programmed and designed myself within and as self interest as the mind and transforming this into a “New Life” where I direct myself to take Absolute Self Responsibility within the principle of what is best for All, and so I forgive myself for not realizing/seeing that my resistance about going into work on “off” or “unexpected” days is actually stopping me from really letting go of my old habbits/patterns/pre-programmed life and Walking myself into a New Life of Self Responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put “my life” first, not Allowing myself to see when I am fighting to be able to live out self interested patterns of “Me First” instead of Placing What is best for all First within who I am as the expression of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place conditions on my life as “things in my life” I “apparently need” not taking into consideration the point of actually “taking on” “my life” from the perspective of identifying where My Mind as Self Interest plays a role or steps in to attempt to influence me and direct me in so that I “insist” that I require certain things in my life not considering if I in fact do, in where I look and see where and how I am still accepting and allowing my Mind to Inform me in my living and thus Form my Life rather Than Me as the Directive Principle of Me taking My Life into my Hands within the principle of What is Best for ALL and thus, directing /informing my life according to this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that “require” days off, and that I have convinced myself that I “need” this, that “I must have this” not actually investigating if this “apparent given” is in fact really necessary or if this is again My Mind informing and directing me by my own acceptance and allowance.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to identify ALL the points/areas/aspects of my world that is in fact “Mind Based” and thus transform these points/areas/aspects so that they are no more “Mind Based” but are Aligned to Practical Self Responsibility of me Standing Up and Within Myself and My World and Directing Myself and My World in Practical Self Responsibility within the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to investigate in self honesty all the aspects/areas/corners of myself /my life and identify all those aspects/areas/corners of myself/my life that are still existing in Self Interest that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify or not see/realize through having simply just accepted such points as “normal parts of my life” without actually identifying and thus assisting and supporting myself to practically change through writing, self forgiveness, and self corrective application, but that I have just kept such mind points still existing/and maintained as “normal parts of my life” instead of actually questioning them to thus aligning Myself no more accept me as such moments/self interested acts, but to align those moments as parts of me to Stand in Practical Self Responsibility within the principle of what is best for all, where one by one I transform all moments as me to stand Here in and as What is best for all.

I commit myself letting go of “how my life is” so as to make room, so to speak for a New life to Emerge, A life where each and every moment I Stand as Life within and as the principle of What is Best for ALL.

I commit myself to Allow myself to “try new things” from the perspective of allowing myself to break my routine as a way not to get stuck in one way or mode of doing things, and in this allow the opportunities for me to “change my life” in by allowing new things/ways of doing things/how I do things/how I live as “A point of Consideration” to exist as me in every moment for me to consider if My habbits/patterns of doing things is preventing me from actually Allowing myself to change due to being stuck in particular points of Mind/Self Interest which is the point of why I would/am insisting to “not do things differently”

I commit myself to identify where my existence as Self Interest in by me “wanting to do that which I have established in self interest as a point to only feed me as the mind”  is the real/actual reason/cause for me “not wanting to try something else/different” / Change my routine.

I commit myself directing myself to transform more of my moments as my day into walking/standing within and as Self Directed Self Responsibility within the principle of what is best for all until all of my moments/me Stand within and as Self Responsibility and Self Direction based on Practical / Physical consideration of what is best for all.

I commit myself to within writing, self forgiveness, and self corrective application assist and support myself to moment by moment, point by point transform all those moments I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as, as self interest, into Moments of Standing within and as and Directing Myself within and as Practical Self Responsibility within and as What is best for all. Where this process of writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application becomes a way to take each moment and open it up in specificity and detail to see exactly how it/I exist as that moment and how it is/was created by myself, and so to thus Re-Align and Engineer the moment as Me to Exist/Stand within the Principle of What is Best For ALL. Where thus this process of writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application becomes like a Microscope where one is able to see into each moment as self and investigate to ensure that each relationship and component of the moment stand within and as the Principle of What is Best for All.

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