Physically Moving Through Mental Obstacles – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 658

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Ok so in this blog I actually have gone back to a point I started walking 4 months ago but did not finish completely. WOW – Lol. I have always had this discomfort within me in relation to when I have started walking points in my blog and then abandon them. It really gave me this urk-sum experience where I just felt dirty, as I attempted to simply sweep the points under the rug because I saw this point within me of “I will likely never get back to that”  So it was like having all this unfinished business or points opened up within me that I never brought to a close. Ok Well Here I have gone back actually and completed a point that I began but never followed through on – Coool!

Here in this blog I am finishing off the process of walking the Self Commitment Statements in relation to the Self Forgiveness walked in:

A Practical Real-Alignment of – Living What is Best For ALL – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 633

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to react in anxiety at the idea/prospect of “Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all”

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tense up inside me in my solar plexus where I experience a kind of restriction and tension within myself in relation to “Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all” ; where here I see this ‘tensing up’ inside myself is where I am like pulling myself back, or holding myself back or stopping myself from actually crossing or walking through that LINE that I have placed within myself that determines who I have accepted and allowed myself to be within and as Self Interest where within crossing that line that I have placed within me and moving/directing me within and as myself into and as “Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all” that I no more would have the same experiences or points within my life that I can ensure remain as part of my life within making sure I never cross that line from my current living as being Conditioned within Self Interest, into “Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all” and where here here Id protect who I have accepted and allowed myself to currently exist as even when that which I am protecting is in fact different forms of abuse and limitation as accepting and allowing Self Interest to be my starting point of who I am, how I live and what I accept and allow to exist within and as me.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to see, realize, and understand that to Direct myself within the context of doing what is best for all is actually best for me, and most supportive for me and so logically speaking, will be the most enjoyable and so I commit myself to assist and support myself to remember and realize this in moments where I am resisting doing what is in fact best for all and best for me. To remember that if it is best for me then I will in fact in the long run get the most out of it and that is what I find in most enjoy, I most enjoy when I really ‘do the right thing’ so to speak.

I commit myself to assist and support myself when and as I see myself tensing up in my solar plexus at the prospect of Living What is Best For ALL, to stop and breathe. I see that this tenseness and this restriction is related to expectations that I am creating for myself and ultimately judging myself against where I create this projection of who I believe I should be in relation to this point of “living what is best for all” and then to compare myself as who I really am at the moment to this and then judge myself for not being what I created in the projection, And so here I commit myself to assist and support myself to rather focus on the moment I am in and Who I am Currently in my Process of becoming and endeavoring to Live what is best for all in all ways, and to look at my Current Reality and assess for myself what points I can work on and assist and support myself within changing and thus shift my attention from these projections of who I think I should be in relation to “Living what is best for all” and shifting this to the current moment and what is here and what I can work with in my current reality moment to assist and support within my process of becoming and endeavoring to Live “What is Best for ALL” in all ways.

And so here I commit myself to keep is simple and simply work with taking ‘baby steps’ if you will in my process of learning to Live and Stand within and as What is Best for ALL.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing parts of myself and life that has been designed within the image and likeness of Self Interest.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to realize that I am able to support myself in my process of Self Change by making simple small changes within my world that does not have to be extreme changes but just here allowing myself to change little things within my world reality as a point of assisting and supporting myself with becoming more malleable within who I am so that I can let go of the death grip I have of my current routine and how I do things day in and day out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not even dare cross that line, or approach that line and where ultimately I have believed myself to be incapable of actually walking out of my life of Self Interest/giving up self interest into “Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all”

I commit myself to assist and support myself to physically direct myself through that internal resistance that comes up within me when ever I go into resistance towards doing something that I see is actually best for me. What is interesting is that most often if not every single time, this resistance isn’t actually a physical obstacle that is in my way that is preventing me from doing that thing/task/point that I see is best for me, the resistance is mental, and so here I commit myself to assist and support myself to physically move myself into the tasks/points that I see are best for me but that I am resisting and so here in physically moving into doing the task, I am practically walking through the mental resistance as Mental Obstacles in relation to them and so here no more accepting and allowing this mental resistance to direct me, control me and dominate me within my process of Self Change and developing myself into and as doing and living what is best for all in each moment.

I see, realize, and understand that this Resistance is simply a point that I must direct myself through and that just because it comes up within me does not indicate that I can not now do that thing that I see and have identified is best for me. I realize that I am able to actually direct myself to walk through this resistance and when I do this, that at times the resistance will dissipate as I move more into directing myself within the physical point/task that I have identified would be best for me to do and so here I commit myself to assist and support myself to stop allowing this resistance experience that comes up as mental obstacles in relation to the point of doing what is best for all, to direct me or obstruct me in my physical application and self movement in living what is best for all and best for me.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to incorporate Living this Principle of what is best for all into all the dimensions of “thought”, “word” and “deed” where the ‘thought’ dimension is the inner reality of myself as my thoughts, feelings, and emotions, and imaginations, projections, fears, pictures in the mind and backchat. And the “word” dimension being my speech and communication and the “deed” dimension being my behavior and so here I commit myself to assist and support myself within all three of these dimensions, identifying where a particular aspect of that dimension is not in alignment with what is best for all and there-in assisting and supporting myself to finding practical solutions to changing it and transforming it in and as myself so that It and I stand in alignment with what is best for all in that particular dimension of me, so step by step, slowly but surely aligning all of myself to stand Equal and One to and as the Principle of Living what is best for all in all ways in each and every moment.

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