“Feed Me” – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 465

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use a relationship to ‘feed me’ a specific experience when where if I am not getting that experience I become upset and claim “the relationship is not working” meanwhile missing the point of actually taking responsibility for myself in terms of realizing that I am the one responsible for my experience and so to thus stop abdicating this point to another to do for me which I see I have done within the context of relationships.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use a relationship as an experience delivery mechanism where the sole purpose of the relationship is to create, generate and feed me positive energy, and thus I have reduced a relationship and what is possible between to beings to a 1 dimensional point of just being there to give me a specific feeling in how ever way that occur but as long as I get the feelings and experiences that I want and when this is not happening define the relationship as “not working”

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see or realize how I had reduced the potential of a relationship with another into just “happy feeling delivery system” and thus had not considered taking Self Responsibility for me and looking at how I can provide this for myself instead of just trying to set up some relationship point in my life to be like a gas tank that I go to for fuel as this happy feeling that I get from the relationship and thus had defined the relationship primarily according to this singular point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reduce relationship to energy and to experience instead of looking at and exploring what was/is practically possible in the coming together in relationships where it is not just reduced to feeding each other “positive energy”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed “energy” be the keystone of the/a relationship where everything else just seemed to be secondary or not important

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to base the effectiveness of a relationship in terms of “if its working on or not” on “positive energy” where I believe that I must have “a positive experience” from the relationship where if this not the case then “something must be wrong”

I commit myself to investigate this point that opened up today where I saw how I was “expecting” the relationship to produce a certain feeling/experience within me where I was not able to see anything else about the relationship but this one singular point and expectation that has completely overridden everything else and thus my ability to see or consider anything else about what a relationship/agreement could be, because my main obsession and possession had become getting and receiving a specific energetic experience from the relationship, and so thus in investigating this I commit myself to assist and support myself to stop limiting the point of relationship/agreement to this one singular limited point of just being there to “produce a feeling” and so to thus push myself to let go of my obsession with energy around the point of relationships and actually start considering other possibilities that a relationship can offer where its no more just about this singular obsession of producing a feeling where the beings in a way become irrelevant and it just become about ‘experience and energy’.

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