The Religion of $elf – An Artists Journey To Life: Day 174

I was reading a point that was recently mentioned in regards to “The Religion of Self” one thing mentioned is how the Religion of Self is formed in relation to the past where one would normally hold some person or event responsible for why self is the way self is. In relation to this I started to immediately look at Who I am in relation to money and looking at “My Religion of Self” within the context of who I have defined myself to be within the context of Money and why I am the way I am.

What I see is Blame towards my family. And How I was raised for being “Why I am The Way I AM” where I have instead of actually taking responsibility for myself within this point, have just accepted “This is Who I AM”, “And it is because of my family and the way I was raised” I see that I have been subtly hanging onto Blame in relation to who I am in and as my relationship to money. Believing “There is Nothing That Can be Done” and Blaming my ‘circumstances’ for my relationship with money, and then “that is that” Holding onto blame instead of changing myself , taking responsibility for myself within this point and Directing Myself accordingly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my family and my family upbringing for why I am the way I am in relation to money, that because I was not raised or taught to understand how to do business in this world and make business/money transactions where this became a more natural part of me, that then “I am doomed in this point” and there is nothing I can do to Change myself or re-establish a “New” Relationship with money, and that “It’s too late now” and within this statement of “its too late now” actually accept and allow myself to hold onto this “Religion of Self” as who I am, and specifically here, who I am in relation to Money as that Self that I have formed in blame towards my family and my upbringing

I see/realize/understand that it is up to me to change myself. I see/realize/understand that I have doubts about my Ability to “Change My Ways” in relation to Money and I see that I simply must face these fears, there doubts and to also assist and support myself within this process with Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Correction.

When and as I see myself starting to experience a kind of anxiety as fear arising from within me in relation to the point of Directing myself in a Committed Dedicated Decision that I have made to Change my relationship with money, I stop and I breathe. I see/realize/understand that if I accept and allow Fear to Direct me and Anxiety to Direct me within this Point, that I will simply “remain the same”. I see/realize/understand that it is MY Responsibility to Change my Relationship with Money and that I must walk PLAY BY THE RULES of Money, meaning I will have to walk the paths and form the relationships that are conducive to generating Money. This means that I will be required to participate and Live in a Different Way from the perspective that What I have lived up to now has been based on my Current Relationship with money where I was able to Live Certain Specific Patterns in my life because I did not have to bother with actually changing my relationship to money which I have now and am busy Committing myself to doing. Thus this means that I will have to walk in and as breath and assisting and supporting myself within Self Forgiveness to walk through points of resistance or fear or uncertainty or doubt or any point or experience that would cause me to stray from my commitment. I commit myself to remember that I MUST PLAY BY THE RULES OF MONEY, and so within this to remain Practical in my Planning and Structuring of How to Actually Change/Form My Relationship with Money, realizing that I will face things that I do not want to do that I have not done before, and that I will have to do those things within my process of Re-Forming My Relationship to Money within myself/life/.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself thinking about or pondering about my family and how I was raised in relation to my relationship with money particularly in relation to any perceived “downfall” I might have with money, I stop and I breathe. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my family for “who I am” in relation to money where within doing this Not Taking Responsibility for myself and Willing and Committing Myself to Walk the Necessary Self Corrective Application instead of just existing in blame and excuses and inferiority.

I commit myself to face my “issues” with money such as rejection, embarrassment, inferiority, fear of not being liked, and to thus walk the Character Dimensions of Who I am within the context of Money and who I have become and lived as within the Context of Money thus walking My “Money Character”

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